Current observations from Mount Nebo
1/15/2010
Continued from 1/11/2010 post
First I will digress back to the story line in the first post on 1/11/2010 to explain further why I stopped writing for now on AstroEcon after 13 years and what prompted me to resume writing here a few days ago. Those who don't know me may be scratching their head less after reading this and the first post.
After poring myself into spiritual pursuits at a young age I concluded after a year or two of study that the highest and best talent I had to work with was to SEE. That is all I asked the universe for.. TO SEE. Humm be careful what you ask for can only be fully realized in hindsight.
Being young and knowing what I knew at that age put me in a conundrum.. I had vowed to NOT take advantage of others with my talent.. Yet I had a whole life ahead of me with things on my agenda for this life like being a dad and good husband and I lived in the suburbs of a big city and hardly anyone could grasp what I was seeing. So I decided to work with my hands rather than use my psychic abilities to make my living and use every day to do some karmic banking.. being an engineers son I had an ability to see a machine and know how to take it apart and "heal" it so I took up fixing appliances.. Holy smoke I was good at it.. Not only that I showed up ON TIME and treated everyone who deserved it with respect. I made money hand over fist and everyone I did biz with loved me.
My pursuit of SEEING did not stop.. I studied astrology and how the aspects between the planets coincided with major changes in the world and in the way markets expressed the public sentiment about that.. BY HAND before computers at first and then with overgrown calculators and did this in my spare time. I did investigation in isolation from anyone else in the field and there were not many back then.. Arch Crawford the only one I knew of in the early 1980s and he could not discuss astrology with me only a mechanical methodology I knew was to rigid for my taste. Time marched on and it seemed like technology was FINALLY catching up with me in the mid 90s with the internet as a way to publish what I was seeing. I had all kinds of insights and was very good at the seeing part.. but the writing about what I saw was.. well bad.. very bad.. Nonetheless I started AstroEcon AS A FREE SITE and slogged through my inability to spell punctuate and yes I cringe when I read what I wrote back in 1996. To compound that problem the internet was in horse and buggy stage back in 1996 and I had to write in HTML code using notepad.. In spite of my shortcomings AstroEcon traffic took off in only a few months.. IT WAS A MIRACLE REALLY. From 1996 on I have written 10s of thousands of pages on AstroEcon and if you got this far down the page I guess my writing has improved at least a little.
AstroEcon was conceived as a public service to serve the greater good and NOT to serve greedy nasty and evil people who have an insatiable need to make money. From the start I included my spiritual perspective as a way to filter out the worst of those types and if they persisted in reading I was boring a hole in their nastiness (even if they did not know it) . That kind of worked I found that about half of my readers were genuinely interested in the high road but the other half were at best greedy and only came around looking for what they perceived were the golden eggs I was laying.
By 2000 I had been working 7 days a week for several years managing two businesses and in 2000 had to give up my service biz and go full time with the web site.. To make a long story short that shift generated a divorce and the end result was I had to accept a semi exclusive arrangement with a London investment banking concern in 2001 to finish my kid raising which at that time included college. The web site was still operational but mostly was posted free of charge much of the time from then into 2006.
A merger ate my consultant gig in 2006 and based on what I could see in the post 2007 period I headed for the hills. I had been warning about a depression post 2007 since 2002 and I acted accordingly.. The resumption of a subscriber site was not exactly what I wanted to do because it felt like going backwards.. But after months of pondering I decided to ratchet my acid tongue up a few notches and carry on. Gawd certainly seemed to make some enemies.. The internet had changes from wild west anything goes to a morass of controlled opposition from our "leaders" and purposeful disinfo they dished out only got worse through 2007 and 2008. By late 2008 I had been forced to watch my country raped even worse than I had predicted and that was EXTREMELY unpleasant.
In early 2009 I decided to give it one last shot to get a more widespread reach for AstroEcon on the net when I went to Durham to learn video .. Suffice to say hat being self taught about everything left me vulnerable in ways I was not prepared for and the web site suffered hacking in mid 2009 done in a way that I could not easily defend .. That attempt ate up enough of my capital that I headed back to the hills.. Times they have changed.. If you point fingers at he real problem and have a CLEAR VISION of what is going on you better have a VERY GOOD organization working with you.. Ask Alex Jones or Rense or Rivero who have such support and even they can hardly defend themselves.
So what is going on now is I am reverting to the theme i started out with.. I serve the greater good and the chips will fall where they may. The last rung on my ladder of ambition for this life is to TRADE MY OWN ACCOUNT AND DO IT WELL. I don't want to become filthy rich I just want to be comfortable.. And keep the pressure on the dark side by being an EXAMPLE..
So back to what promoted me to write again? I saw one of my blood brothers almost go down in battle a week ago. When you see that it is not easy to keep from picking your sword back up and get back in the fray.
The problem of empathy
I intend to do a little scorched earth writing down here this AM. Call it RED RAIN or whatever. My sense of righteous indignation has been running off the scale for 6 weeks now and like a volcano I need to vent. I see my brothers being attacked in various ways and it makes me angry.
A week or two ago one of my friends and peers Les Visible .. suffered a psychic meltdown.. I had his birth data and determined that he like myself had a congenital empathic vulnerability. We went back and forth about this as I tried to delineate the problem and I really don't know yet if he will make it or not.. What I did see clearly interacting with him was I was being a pussy by not writing what I see. My absence was making it harder on those few left still speaking.. so if nothing else I needed to get back into the mix .. Kind of like the old west where ya got to provide cover for someone under fire even if that means exposing ones self in the process.
Les was getting hammered astro wise and his pain levels from uncontrollable empathy were ramped up.. I was feeling the same but at least I have astro to make some sense of it.. We are in an eclipse month and emotive extremes are common during them .. I think what was at the root of both of our max angst was feeling the quake disaster coming that manifested a few days ago. When 100s of thousands of human souls are cast into a caldron of suffering this tends to leak out in front of it in time on a psychic level and those few who have the ability to see and feel what is coming just have to man up and realize that a gift can be a curse at times. So hang in dude.. take a little time off to get right again .. we got ya covered.
I listened to Alex Jones radio yesterday.. There is another guy I tip my hat too.. I have his chart data but don't know him personally (yet) He is the real deal as best I can tell. He is living his chart energy out perfectly and he is what he says he is.. Alex is a good man with HUGE INSIGHT and a big mouth.. I can relate..
He was on air yesterday detailing what he has to deal with in terms of the PTB doing all sorts of dastardly things to attempt to shut him down. This includes infiltration of his inner circle.. various attempts at entrapment.. hacking and character smearing. Believe me if his heart was not in the right place there is no way he would continue.
Another guy I know personally and respect a LOT is web bot Clif High.. There is another guy with an empathic vulnerability that he has to contend with on a daily basis.. Clif may seem almost fearless in the way he details the monsters being created on down the time line but I know he is beside himself as much as anyone I know of. Clif and I are very good at helping each other cope with our cancerian sensitivity while having an over active mind at the same time.. Hey it is the warrior way..